第10章 決戰10
離開悟空後，悟飯無敵 作者：小肥滾來了 投票推薦 加入書簽 留言反饋
\\\"for my entire existence, i thought i was just one person assuming another vessel.\\\"（對於我的整個存在，我以為我隻是一個人承擔另一個身體。）
\\\"but it\\u0027s far more plicated than that.\\\"（但事實要比這複雜得多。）
\\\"polo finally brought his queen to the ying field.\\\"（悟空終於把他的皇後帶到了棋盤上。）
\\\"i am the demon king, the physical manifestation of the darkness lurking in some nameless namekian\\u0027s heart.\\\"（我是魔王，是那個無名邪惡得心髒中黑暗的具象化。）
\\\"but at the same time, i\\u0027m not.\\\"（但與此同時，我又不是。）
\\\"i\\u0027m my own man, with my own desires and goals.\\\"（我是我自己的人，有著自己的欲望和目標。）
\\\"gohan harkened back to his conversation with arepa, where he dered he would defeat frieza for his own self.\\\"（悟飯迴想起他與阿瑞帕的對話，他在那裏宣稱他會為了自己而擊敗弗利薩。）
\\\"after everything that had gone down since, he\\u0027d lost sight of it.\\\"（自那以後，他已經迷失了自己的目標。）
\\\"i have all of the demon king\\u0027s memories, but they\\u0027re just pictures in my head.\\\"（我擁有魔王的所有記憶，但它們隻是我腦海中的畫麵。）
\\\"i don\\u0027t feel anything when i recall your father killing him.\\\"（當我迴想起你的父親殺死他時，我不會感到任何情緒。）
\\\"i desire to defeat goku not for vengeance, not for world conquest, but simply for my pride as a martial artist.\\\"（我渴望擊敗悟空，不是為了報複，不是為了征服世界，隻是為了我作為一個武術家的自尊。）
\\\"that\\u0027s why i can\\u0027t ept my victory over him.\\\"（這就是為什麽我不能接受我對他的勝利。）
\\\"polo used a pawn to knock off one of gohan\\u0027s unused pawns.\\\"（悟空用一個兵卒擊倒了悟飯的一個未使用的兵卒。）
\\\"gohan sighed in frustration.\\\"（悟飯歎了口氣，感到沮喪。）
\\\"that mad scientist offered to turn me into an android because we had the same goal,\\\" polo exined.\\\"（那個瘋狂的科學家提出將我變成一個人造人，因為我們有著相同的目標，\\\"悟空解釋道。）
\\\"gohan stiffened at the memory ofpis.\\\"（悟飯對拉皮斯的記憶感到僵硬。）
\\\"i refused.\\\"（我拒絕了。）
\\\"i wouldn\\u0027t take shortcuts and i wouldn\\u0027t defeat goku as another man\\u0027s pawn.\\\"（我不會走捷徑，也不會把悟空打敗作為別人的棋子。）
\\\"gohan used his queen to knock off one of polo\\u0027s pawns.\\\"（悟飯用他的皇後擊倒了悟空的一個兵卒。）
\\\"so then why wake uppis andzuli?\\\"（那麽為什麽要喚醒拉皮斯和拉祖利呢？）
\\\"polo set his queen down, thinking the question over.\\\"（悟空放下他的皇後，思考著這個問題。）
\\\"he anxiously cracked his neck.\\\"（他焦慮地扭動著脖子。）
\\\"i thought they could handle your father\\u0027s friends.\\\"（我以為他們能夠對付你父親的朋友們。）
\\\"i didn\\u0027t really know just how powerful they actually were.\\\"（我並不真正知道他們實際上有多強大。）
\\\"as gohan moved his queen in front of the king, he wondered if vegeta had ever expected him to surpass him.\\\"（當悟飯把他的皇後移到國王前時，他想知道貝吉塔是否曾經預料到他會超過他。）
\\\"he had brought it up once purely out of sight, but vegeta truly might had feared it, at the very least.\\\"（他曾經純粹出於視線之外提到過這個問題，但貝吉塔可能真的害怕過，至少這樣說。）
\\\"i\\u0027m lucky they didn\\u0027t kill me once they figured it out.\\\"（幸運的是，他們發現後沒有殺了我。）
\\\"i was pretty rough on them.\\\"（我對他們夠狠的。）
\\\"gohan knocked over one of polo\\u0027sst pawns with his queen while studying his pensive expression.\\\"（悟飯用他的皇後擊倒了悟空最後的一個兵卒，同時研究著他的思索表情。）
\\\"do you regret it?\\\"（你後悔嗎？）
\\\"polo narrowed his eyes at gohan in focus, but diverted his attention towards the board.\\\"（悟空專注地瞪著悟飯，但把注意力轉向了棋盤。）
\\\"his queen had gohan\\u0027s king trapped.\\\"（他的皇後把悟飯的國王困住了。）
\\\"check.\\\"（將軍。）
\\\"gohan looked at the board with a growl.\\\"（悟飯咆哮著看著棋盤。）
\\\"he was stuck – he could move his queen in front of the king to protect it, but that would be dying the inevitable.\\\"（他陷入了困境-他可以把他的皇後移到國王前保護它，但那隻會推遲必然的結果。）
\\\"he had no moves left.\\\"（他沒有棋可走了。）
\\\"and thus, he got up and sted the entire board away.\\\"（因此，他站起來把整個棋盤炸毀了。）
\\\"and that\\u0027s why i keep having to zap a new one every damn day,\\\" polo
grumbled.（這就是為什麽我每天都不得不給他們來一記電擊的原因。）
\\\"you have pawns for a reason.\\\"（你有棋子是有原因的。）
\\\"use them.\\\"（好好利用它們。）
\\\"whatever…\\\" gohan marched to the lobby, wanting nothing to do with either meditation or polo.（無所謂……悟飯走向大廳，不想與冥想或悟空有任何關係。）
\\\"inside the lobby, he stopped at the kitchen table and stared at the blue scouter and the red bag of dragon balls.\\\"（在大廳裏，他停在廚房的桌子旁，盯著藍色的探測儀和紅色的龍珠袋。）
\\\"he took a seat and buried his head in his hand, wondering how much longer this would go on.\\\"（他坐下來，將頭埋在手中，想知道這種情況還要持續多久。）
\\\"but he couldn\\u0027t give up.\\\"（但他不能放棄。）
\\\"too many people saw the light within him.\\\"（太多人看到了他內心的光芒。）
\\\"four monthster, gohan sat in a void for the umpteenth time.\\\"（四個月後，悟飯又一次坐在了虛空中。）
\\\"his entire body shook as a vtile, green glow surrounded him.\\\"（他的整個身體都在顫抖，被一種不穩定的綠色光芒環繞著。）
\\\"polo had been standing behind him, his eyes on his tail.\\\"（悟空一直站在他身後，眼睛盯著他的尾巴。）
\\\"he was now on his fifth recement arm on either side after a few outbursts, and wouldn\\u0027t let it get that far again.\\\"（在幾次爆發後，他的雙側已經是第五次更換的手臂，他不會再讓事情變得那麽嚴重了。）
\\\"gohan!\\\" he shouted.（“悟飯！”他喊道。）
\\\"he didn\\u0027t turn around.\\\"（他沒有轉身。）
\\\"polo patiently exhaled, staying perfectly still.\\\"（悟空耐心地唿出一口氣，保持完全靜止。）
\\\"a minuteter, gohan turned around.\\\"（一分鍾後，悟飯轉過身來。）
\\\"his eyes were bloodshot, his brows curled in a forlorn whimper.\\\"（他的眼睛布滿了血絲，眉毛緊鎖，發出淒涼的嗚咽聲。）
\\\"he had been sitting in that same position for days, refusing to eat, sleep, or engage with polo at all.\\\"（他已經坐在那個同樣的位置上好幾天了，拒絕進食、睡覺或與悟空交流。）
\\\"you\\u0027re miserable, kid.\\\"（“你很悲慘，孩子。”）
\\\"gohan\\u0027s ragged breaths grew louder.\\\"（悟飯的喘息聲變得更大聲。）
\\\"his face carried a mixture of despair, confusion, and exhaustion.\\\"（他的臉上帶著絕望、困惑和疲憊的混合表情。）
\\\"l-let\\u0027s just go back... i-i can\\u0027t...!\\\"（“讓我們迴去吧...我...我不能...！”）
\\\"this is part of the process,\\\" polo calmly replied.（“這是過程的一部分，”悟空平靜地迴答道。）
\\\"in this void, you have nothing to distract you.\\\"（“在這個虛空中，你沒有任何分心的事物。”）
\\\"it\\u0027s just you and your thoughts, with no way of leaving the darkest corners.\\\"（“隻有你和你的思緒，無法離開最黑暗的角落。”）
\\\"it\\u0027s not doing anything!\\\" gohan shouted.（“這一點用都沒有！”悟飯喊道。）
\\\"you have to confront your lowest thoughts.\\\"（“你必須麵對自己最低的想法。”）
\\\"you don\\u0027t think i wake up in misery every day, either?\\\" polo asked.（“你不覺得我每天醒來都是痛苦的嗎？”悟空問道。）
\\\"constant defeat at your father\\u0027s hands, embarrassment at your hands, wondering if i truly have what it takes.\\\"（“不斷被你父親打敗，在你手中感到尷尬，不知道我是否真的擁有必要的能力。”）
\\\"i am constantly confronted with my futility.\\\"（“我不斷地麵對自己的無用。”）
\\\"shut up!\\\" gohan snapped.（“閉嘴！”悟飯怒喝道。）
\\\"his pupils flickered gold, which made polo swallow.\\\"（他的瞳孔閃爍著金色，讓悟空咽了口水。）
\\\"you just sound like vegeta!\\\"（“你聽起來就像貝吉塔！”）
\\\"when gohan stood up, polo squared his shoulders, knowing what was about to happen.\\\"（當悟飯站起來時，悟空挺直了肩膀，知道即將發生什麽。）
\\\"that green aura exploded around him again.\\\"（那股綠色光芒再次在他周圍爆發。）
\\\"you\\u0027re no different!\\\"（“你和他們沒什麽不同！”）
\\\"his eyes became gold again, and a secondter he flew at polo.\\\"（他的眼睛再次變成了金色，一秒鍾後他向悟空飛去。）
\\\"the namekian evaded the punch thrown his way by a mere inch and flew away as fast as he could while gohan broke his fall.\\\"（這個純粹的一英寸閃避了他的一擊，而悟飯摔倒了，他盡可能地飛快飛走。）
\\\"the rabid teenager had closed the gap soon after, however, and mmed polo into the floor with two fists.\\\"（然而，這個狂
熱的少年很快就縮小了差距，用兩隻拳頭猛擊悟空，將他砸到了地板上。）
\\\"when polonded, gohan sted down with both feet extended, intending to just stomp him into mush.\\\"（悟空著陸時，悟飯用兩隻伸出的腳猛烈地猛踩，打算將他踩成肉泥。）
\\\"at the veryst second, polo jumped out of the way, making gohan crashnd with his feet stuck in the ground.\\\"（在最後一刻，悟空跳了開來，讓悟飯在腳卡在地麵上的情況下墜落。）
\\\"taking advantage, polo outstretched his arm and squeezed gohan\\u0027s tail, bringing him down instantly.\\\"（趁機，悟空伸直了胳膊，捏住了悟飯的尾巴，瞬間將他製服。）
\\\"polo pulled him in with his retracting arm, clutching his burning chest with the other hand.\\\"（悟空用收迴的胳膊將他拉了進來，另一隻手緊緊抓住他灼熱的胸口。）
\\\"he only had gohan\\u0027s erratic, error-prone mind state in that form to thank for even being alive.\\\"（他隻能感謝悟飯那種不穩定、容易出錯的心態，才能活下來。）
\\\"you have to get a hold of yourself,\\\" polo ordered as he felt gohan\\u0027s energy falling down to normal.（“你必須控製住自己，”悟空命令道，感受到悟飯的能量恢複正常。）
\\\"running does nothing but distance you from your goal.\\\"（“逃避隻會使你離目標更遠。”）
\\\"gohan\\u0027s eyes, jet ck again, spilled tears as polo let go.\\\"（悟飯的眼睛再次變成烏黑的，當悟空鬆開時，淚水湧出。）
\\\"he had been snapping back to normal faster, at least.\\\"（至少他恢複正常的速度更快了。）
\\\"with a loud shriek, he mmed the ground in frustration.\\\"（他沮喪地發出一聲尖叫，猛烈地砸向地麵。）\\\"you want to be two different people, that\\u0027s your problem,\\\" polo said.（“你想成為兩個不同的人，這就是你的問題，”悟空說道。）
\\\"you don\\u0027t want to be that weak, sensitive kid that was taken by raditz, but you don\\u0027t want to be the monster that\\u0027s murdered trillions either.\\\"（“你既不想成為被拉迪茨帶走的那個軟弱敏感的孩子，又不想成為那個屠戮了無數生命的怪物。”）
\\\"you have to find the center.\\\"（“你必須找到平衡點。”）
\\\"only you know what\\u0027s actually in your heart.\\\"（“隻有你自己知道你的內心實際上是什麽。”）
\\\"and if you\\u0027re so set on trying to get the dragon balls to wish people back, you\\u0027re clearly not as bad as you think.\\\"（“如果你堅決要去尋找龍珠讓人們複活，顯然你並沒有你所想象的那麽壞。”）
\\\"bullshit,\\\" gohan said, his voice heavy.（“胡說八道，”悟飯說道，聲音低沉。）
\\\"it won\\u0027t change anything! i\\u0027m still him... i\\u0027m still the one who killed them all, even if they e back!\\\"（“這不會改變任何事情！我依然是他...我依然是那個殺死他們所有人的人，即使他們複活！”）
\\\"well, you have me there,\\\" polo quipped, though he was still serious.（“好吧，你說得對，”悟空嘲笑道，盡管他仍然很認真。）
\\\"but if you want to continue living, then that means acknowledging your past actions, knowing the reason for those actions, and knowing who you are now.\\\"（“但是，如果你想繼續活下去，那就意味著承認你過去的行為，了解這些行為的原因，知道你現在是誰。”）
\\\"frieza\\u0027s army must have been a personal hell, but it\\u0027s enabled you to be stronger.\\\"（“弗利薩的軍隊一定是個人的地獄，但它使你變得更強大。”）
\\\"tougher.\\\"（“更堅強。”）
polo grabbed gohan by his hair and lifted his head up, forcing him to look him in the eye.（悟空抓住悟飯的頭發，抬起他的頭，強迫他與他對視。）
\\\"you are not that kid anymore.\\\"（“你不再是那個孩子了。”）
\\\"there\\u0027s not a person alive on this who can push you around.\\\"（“在這個星球上沒有人能欺負你。”）
\\\"and if you defeat frieza, you will no longer be bound by any trace of his organization or influence.\\\"（“如果你擊敗弗利薩，你將不再受到他組織或影響的任何束縛。”）
\\\"you can be exactly the person you think you should be.\\\"（“你可以成為你認為應該成為的人。”）
\\\"i\\u0027ll still be a murderer,\\\" gohan spat through his teeth.（“我依然是一個殺人犯，”悟飯咬牙切齒地說道。）
\\\"then change your reputation,\\\" polo growled.（“那就改變你的名聲，”悟空咆哮道。）
\\\"the very concept disgusts me, but if you want to clear your name and prove you\\u0027re better, then don\\u0027t just stop at bringing people back.\\\"（“這個概念讓我厭惡，但是如果你想洗清你的名聲，證明你更好，那就不要僅僅滿足於讓人複活。”）
\\\"help people.\\\"（“幫助他人。”）
\\\"create a world that isn\\u0027t in danger from people like frieza, or vegeta, or me.\\\"（“創造一個不會受到弗利薩、貝吉塔或者我這樣的人威脅的世界。”）
\\\"or who you were forced to be.\\\"（“也不會受到你被迫成為的那個人的威脅。”）
polo let gohan go, letting him sink down to the floor.（悟空放開了悟飯，讓他沉到了地板上。）
\\\"the half-saiyan didn\\u0027t move, sullenly looking down.\\\"（這個半人半賽亞人沒有動，鬱鬱寡歡地低頭。）
\\\"opting to give him space, polo turned around and headed for the lobby.\\\"（選擇給他空間，悟空轉身走向大廳。）
\\\"you don\\u0027t have it all figured out, either,\\\" gohan muttered.（“你也沒有完全搞清楚，”悟飯嘀咕著。）
\\\"with a vein in his head swelling, polo swung back around.\\\"（悟空的頭腦中的血管膨脹，他又轉過身來。）
\\\"gohan\\u0027s face was
neither spiteful nor taunting, just exhausted.\\\"（悟飯的臉既不惡毒也不嘲諷，隻是疲憊不堪。）
\\\"i mean, you\\u0027re mostly there, but... i think you hate the fact that you\\u0027re not as bad as you think.\\\"（“我的意思是，你大部分都明白了，但是...我覺得你討厭你並沒有你所想象的那麽壞。”）
polo frowned deeply; since when had this brat been so lucid?（悟空深深皺起了眉頭；這小子什麽時候變得如此清醒了？）
\\\"gohan smiled, weakly.\\\"（悟飯微笑著，虛弱地。）
\\\"you want to be the demon king, but you\\u0027re not.\\\"（“你想成為魔王，但你不是。”）
polo closed his eyes, despising every single word the kid had spoken.（悟空閉上了眼睛，對這個孩子說的每一個字都感到厭惡。）
\\\"with a sigh, he sat down.\\\"（他歎了口氣，坐了下來。）
\\\"so it seems.\\\"（“看來是這樣。”）
they stayed like that, just sitting down in silence; there was no bickering, no fighting, just peace.（他們就這樣靜靜地坐著，沒有爭吵，沒有打鬥，隻有平靜。）
\\\"polo intermittently looked up at gohan, just to see if he was still restless.\\\"（“悟空時不時抬頭看著悟飯，隻是為了看看他是否還是那麽焦躁不安。”）
\\\"from the outside, he seemed to at least try considering polo\\u0027s advice.\\\"（從外表上看，他似乎至少試著考慮了悟空的建議。）
\\\"the former demon nsmen still couldn\\u0027t wrap his head around things getting to this point – willingly spending time with the son of his lifelong enemy.\\\"（這個前魔族成員仍然無法理解事情為何會走到這一步——願意與他終生的敵人的兒子共度時光。）
\\\"being his de facto life coach, even.\\\"（甚至成為他的事實上的生活教練。）
\\\"the original polo – the true polo - must have been looking up in disgust.\\\"（原本的悟空——真正的悟空——一定對此感到厭惡。）
\\\"ever since you and vegeta arrived and revealed this frieza business, i\\u0027ve had this sinking feeling that the end of my life is drawing near.\\\"（“自從你和貝吉塔到來並揭示了這個弗利薩的事情以來，我就有一種即將離世的沉重感覺。”）
gohan looked up, stunned by how polo had chosen to break what felt like an hour of silence.（悟飯抬起頭，驚訝於悟空選擇打破了仿佛已經持續了一個小時的沉默。）
polo restlessly squeezed his fists.（悟空焦躁地握緊了拳頭。）
\\\"it\\u0027s not fear, but more a premonition.\\\"（“這不是恐懼，而更像是一種預感。”）
\\\"whether it\\u0027s that fossil on the other side of this room finally croaking, or somebody in frieza\\u0027s army getting me.\\\"（“無論是這個房間另一邊的那個古董終於死掉了，還是弗利薩的軍隊中的某個人要害我。”）
\\\"i can almost feel it.\\\"（“我幾乎能感覺到。”）
\\\"damn that old bastard and his divine foresight.\\\"（“該死的老東西和他的神聖預知。”）
\\\"i\\u0027m forced to feel his thoughts.\\\"（“我被迫感受到他的思想。”）
\\\"that\\u0027s why we keep training,\\\" gohan said, his voice bolder.（“這就是為什麽我們不斷訓練，”悟飯說道，聲音更加堅定。）
\\\"i can\\u0027t die.\\\"（“我不能死。”）
\\\"not after everything i\\u0027ve gone through.\\\"（“不在經曆過這一切之後。”）
at least the boy had some level of conviction.（至少這個孩子有一定的信念。）
\\\"it was a strange feeling, being able to foresee his own demise even if he didn\\u0027t know how it would e.\\\"（“這是一種奇怪的感覺，即使不知道死亡的具體方式，他也能預見自己的死亡。”）
\\\"he stared at gohan\\u0027s tattered, purple uniform with bated breath.\\\"（他屏住唿吸盯著悟飯那破爛的紫色製服。）
\\\"perhaps on some level, he had wanted to leave something of himself behind.\\\"（也許在某種程度上，他希望留下一些自己的東西。）
\\\"do you ever wonder about namek?\\\" gohan asked.（“你有沒有想過那美克星？”悟飯問道。）
\\\ vegeta\\u0027s gone, but sometimes i\\u0027m curious about what it\\u0027s like...\\\"（“貝吉塔星消失了，但有時我很好奇那裏是什麽樣子的...”）
\\\"what\\u0027s there to wonder? i didn\\u0027t even know that part of me until vegeta broke the news.\\\"（“有什麽好奇的？我甚至不知道那部分的存在，直到貝吉塔告訴我。”）
\\\"i have all of the demon king\\u0027s memories from before his death, and the demon king has all of god\\u0027s memories from before the split.\\\"（“我擁有魔王死前的所有記憶，而魔王則擁有在分裂之前的上帝的所有記憶。”）
\\\"if i had to guess, the only trace of that left is our
nguage.\\\"（“如果我猜的話，那個星球唯一的痕跡就是我們的語言。”）
\\\"besides that, it\\u0027s just decades of sitting in some wastnd on earth.\\\"（“除此之外，它隻是在地球上的一片荒地上度過的幾十年。”）
in truth, he did wonder.（事實上，他確實很好奇。）
\\\"what did these namekians look like? what did they live like? were they an entire of meek, faux-philosophical bores like god? were they skilled martial artists? were some of the demon king\\u0027s customs subconscious memories of the? had the dragon balls been a subconscious memory?\\\"（“那些那美克星人是什麽樣子的？他們的生活是什麽樣子的？他們是不是像上帝那樣溫順、偽哲學的無聊人？他們是熟練的武術家嗎？魔王的一些習俗是對星球的潛意識記憶嗎？龍珠是潛意識記憶嗎？”）
\\\"they were all questions that swirled his mind, much to his chagrin.\\\"（“這些問題都在他腦海中迴旋，令他感到煩惱。”）\\\"sometimes we fixate on impossible shit, y\\u0027know?\\\" gohan said.（“有時候我們會固執於不可能的事情，你知道嗎？”悟飯說。）
\\\"like, what would my father be like if he never hit his head? it\\u0027s hard to imagine that guy being just as nasty as vegeta, nappa, and raditz.\\\"（“比如，如果我父親沒有撞到頭，他會是什麽樣子呢？很難想象那個人會像貝吉塔、納帕和拉迪茨那樣狠毒。”）
poloughed, admittedly having visualized it himself in his idle time over the years.（悟空笑了起來，坦白說他自己在過去的空閑時間裏也曾想象過。）
goku of all people, d in saiyan armor with one of those sadistic smirks on his face.（果然，穿著賽亞人盔甲的悟空臉上露出了那種嗜血的笑容。）
a truly absurd, impossible image.（這是一個真正荒謬而不可能的畫麵。）
\\\"i have a feeling your father would have been an idiot all the same,\\\" polo replied.（“我有種感覺，你父親始終都是個白癡。”悟空迴答道。）
\\\"i wish i could figure out what he really thinks of me,\\\" gohan said, folding his arms again.（“我希望我能弄清楚他對我的真正看法，”悟飯又折起了雙臂。）
\\\"he acts like he\\u0027s okay, and maybe he really is, but i know he wishes i wasn\\u0027t…\\\" he spread his arms, gesturing towards his body.（“他表現得好像沒事，也許他真的沒事，但我知道他希望我不是……”他伸開雙臂，指著自己的身體。）
\\\"this.\\\"（“這個。”）
polo shook his head.（悟空搖了搖頭。）
\\\"kid, your father damn near sees me as his friend, and i\\u0027ve very literally killed him and threatened everyone he\\u0027s cared about.\\\"（“孩子，你父親幾乎把我當成了他的朋友，而我確實曾經殺過他並威脅過他關心的每個人。”）
\\\"i highly doubt he truly thinks less of his own seed.\\\"（“我非常懷疑他真的會看低自己的後代。”）
\\\"furthermore, why do you care? only you know who you truly are, and your opinion is the only one that actually matters.\\\"（“而且，你為什麽在意呢？隻有你知道你真正是誰，你的意見才是唯一真正重要的。”）
\\\"if it weren\\u0027t the case, we wouldn\\u0027t be here right now.\\\"（“如果不是這樣的話，我們現在就不會在這裏了。”）
\\\"he\\u0027s my father,\\\" gohan contested.（“他是我的父親，”悟飯爭辯道。）
\\\"i\\u0027m not like you – i still feel the old memories about myself.\\\"（“我不像你——我仍然記得自己的舊記憶。”）
\\\"i remember how much he and mom used to gush over me.\\\"（“我記得他和媽媽曾經有多麽喜歡我。”）
\\\"i remember…\\\"（“我記得……”）
gohan choked up.（悟飯哽咽了。）
\\\"for once, he didn\\u0027t cry, but he had to stop and gather himself.\\\"（這一次，他沒有哭泣，但他不得不停下來，讓自己冷靜下來。）
\\\"i remember how much i loved them.\\\"（“我記得我有多麽愛他們。”）
gohan buried his head in both hands, looking up at the vast walls.（悟飯把頭埋在雙手之間，抬頭望著遼闊的牆壁。）
\\\"my mom didn\\u0027t even want me to be a fighter.\\\"（“我媽媽甚至不希望我成為一名戰士。”）
\\\"how i am now? i don\\u0027t know how she\\u0027s even been able to look at me.\\\"（“我現在的樣子？我不知道她是怎麽能看得下去的。”）
polo nodded, recalling chi-chi\\u0027s horror and denial when she first saw gohan for the first time.（悟空點了點頭，迴想起琪琪第一次見到悟飯時的恐懼和否認。）
\\\"she had even tried to attack him for stating the truth of the matter, even without any judgment or condemnation.\\\"（“她甚至試圖攻擊他，僅僅是因為他陳述了事實，沒有任何判斷或譴責。”）
\\\"vegeta… that\\u0027s the only father figure i\\u0027ve had,\\\" gohan said with a bitterugh.（“貝吉塔……那是我唯一的父親形象，”悟飯苦笑道。）
\\\"and i would have killed him, too.\\\"（“而且我也會殺了他。”）
\\\"you may have been in an unhinged state, but is it really so bad that you would have pursued vengeance towards somebody who\\u0027s subjected you to grief?\\\"（“也許你當時情緒失控，但對於那些給你帶來痛苦的人，你追求複仇真的那麽糟糕嗎？”）
\\\"you don\\u0027t get it,\\\" gohan said.（“你不明白。”悟飯說。）
\\\"you\\u0027re right.\\\"（“你說得對。”）
\\\"i do resent him.\\\"（“我確實怨恨他。”）
\\\"but all that es from that weak little baby that raditz took.\\\"（“但這一切都源於那個拉迪茨帶走的弱小的嬰兒。”）
\\\"vegeta taught me how to actually be strong.\\\"（“貝吉塔教會
了我如何真正變得強大。”）
\\\"he\\u0027s saved my life.\\\"（“他救了我的命。”）
\\\"even when i thought he didn\\u0027t give a shit about me, he saved arepa for no reason than to do right by me.\\\"（“即使我認為他根本不在乎我，他也救了阿瑞帕，隻是為了對我做對的事。”）
\\\"that was hardly the first time polo had heard gohan speak that name, arepa.\\\"（這不是悟空第一次聽到悟飯說那個名字，阿瑞帕。）
\\\"he would frequently say it in his sleep; even during his meditation.\\\"（“他經常在睡覺時說出來，甚至在冥想時也會說。”）
\\\"clearly, whomever this person was meant a lot to gohan.\\\"（“顯然，這個人對悟飯來說意義重大。”）
\\\"hell, he might not have been going through all of these struggles if they were around.\\\"（“他甚至可能不會經曆所有這些掙紮，如果他們在身邊的話。”）
\\\"we\\u0027re back to square one, then,\\\" polo said.（“那麽我們又迴到原點了。”悟空說。）
\\\"there\\u0027s one part of you that resents everything vegeta put you through, and another part that rejects the very idea.\\\"（“你的一部分心裏對貝吉塔使你經曆的一切懷有怨恨，而另一部分則完全反對這個想法。”）
\\\"with frieza, it\\u0027s simple – he\\u0027s never been anything but terrible, correct?\\\"（“對弗利薩來說，這很簡單——他從來沒有做過任何好事，對嗎？”）
gohan nodded.（悟飯點了點頭。）
\\\"but from the sound of it, vegeta is several things to you at once.\\\"（“但從你的說法來看，貝吉塔對你來說同時具有多種身份。”）
\\\"if you killed frieza, you would be happy.\\\"（“如果你殺了弗利薩，你會感到高興。”）
\\\"if you killed vegeta, even if you wanted to, you\\u0027d ultimately hate yourself for it.\\\"（“即使你想殺貝吉塔，你最終也會憎恨自己。”）
\\\"you need to learn how to bnce it all out.\\\"（“你需要學會如何平衡這一切。”）
gohan shut his eyes, exhaling through his nose.（悟飯閉上眼睛，通過鼻子唿出氣來。）
\\\"i guess.\\\"（“我想是吧。”）
he kept his eyes closed as a yellow glow enveloped his body.（他閉著眼睛，全身籠罩在黃色的光芒中。）
from the way his ki felt, polo could discern he was making a stronger effort to meditate.（從他的氣感覺來看，悟空可以斷定他正在更努力地冥想。）
for once, he was actually getting through.（這一次，他真的取得了進展。）
gohan flew as fast as he could, evading the stretchy green arms pursuing his legs.（悟飯以最快的速度飛行，躲避著追逐他的拉長的綠色手臂。）
the further he flew, the chillier his body became.（他飛得越遠，他的身體就越寒冷。）
he turned around and fired a st, but polo easily kicked it away.（他轉身發射了一道能量波，但悟空輕易地踢開了它。）
a split-secondter, the namekian was right in front of him and delivered a brutal kick to his jaw.（一刹那後，這個納美克星人就站在他麵前，給了他一記狠狠的踢擊。）
gohan dropped down, breaking his fall with a flip tond on his feet.（悟飯落了下來，用翻身來緩衝著落，穩穩地站在腳上。）
it was month nine, from gohan\\u0027s estimation.（從悟飯的估計來看，這已經是第九個月了。）
he could feel his body growing, and it had often been a painful experience even if he came out stronger for it.（他能感覺到自己的身體在成長，這常常是一種痛苦的經曆，盡管他因此變得更強大。）
a month earlier, polo had to zap a new uniform for him after his body ripped through the older one.（一個月前，悟空的身體撕裂了舊的製服，悟空不得不給他傳送了一套新的製服。）
now 14 years old, his voice was just a tad deeper and scratchier too.（現在14歲了，他的聲音稍微低沉和嘶啞了一些。）
but that wasn\\u0027t the most annoying development.（但這不是最令人討厭的事情。）
with ample time to train in heavier gravity and erratic conditions while gohan meditated, polo had bee a truly worthy opponent.（在悟飯冥想時，悟空有充足的時間在更重的重力和不穩定的環境中進行訓練，因此悟空已經成為了一個真正的強大對手。）
save for gohan\\u0027spses of rage that drove him to that insidious transformation, their spars were no longer one-sided beatdowns.（除了悟飯因憤怒而發生的那種邪惡的轉變之外，他們的格鬥已經不再是一方麵的壓倒性勝利。）
despite all of his identity issues, gohan knew one thing for certain – he was a saiyan, and wouldn\\u0027t ept anybody besting him in battle.（盡管悟飯存在著諸多身份
問題，但他確信一件事——他是一個賽亞人，不會接受任何人在戰鬥中勝過他。）
and thus, he flew right back at polo.（因此，他直接向悟空飛去。）
the two warriors in purple met in a sh, exchanging a flurry of attacks with petitive smirks on their faces.（這兩位身著紫色的戰士在一次衝突中相遇，他們的臉上帶著競爭的笑容，交換著一連串的攻擊。）
in many ways, the constant sparring had dulled their hostility.（從許多方麵來看，不斷的切磋已經減輕了他們之間的敵意。）
unfortunately for gohan, the increasingly cold weather had taken a toll, sapping him of his energy.（不幸的是，越來越冷的天氣對悟飯產生了影響，耗盡了他的能量。）
polo, on the other hand, hadn\\u0027t even registered the weather thus far and knocked gohan all the way down to the floor.（另一方麵，悟空甚至沒有注意到這種天氣，把悟飯打倒在地。）
hended on his feet again, panting heavily as he looked up.（他再次站起來，大口喘著氣，抬頭看著前方。）
vapors left his mouth with every breath.（每一次唿吸，他的嘴裏都冒著水蒸氣。）
the namekian phased in front of him and aimed a kick at his chest.（納美克星人出現在他麵前，朝他的胸口踢去。）
while gohan blocked it with his forearm, he flew away in lieu of triggering another exchange of punches and kicks.（盡管悟飯用前臂擋住了它，但他卻飛離了現場，以避免引發另一輪拳腳交鋒。）flying brought gohan further into the cold depths, however.（然而，飛行將悟飯帶入了更加寒冷的深處。）
his entire body shivered, having never experienced conditions this frigid in his time in the room.（他的整個身體顫抖著，從未在房間裏經曆過如此寒冷的條件。）
with his energy running low, he could do little to resist the punch polo delivered to his stomach, falling to the floor while feeling bile rise to his throat.（能量所剩無幾，他幾乎無力抵抗悟空對他的一擊，摔倒在地上，感覺膽汁上湧到喉嚨。）
\\\"you humans and your skin,\\\" polo taunted.（\\\"你們人類和你們的皮膚，\\\"悟空譏笑道。）
\\\"c-can\\u0027t handle a little chill.\\\"（\\\"連一點點寒冷都受不了。\\\"）
of course, even polo had a slight shiver, which underscored just how absurdly cold the atmosphere had bee.（當然，即使是悟空也微微顫抖了一下，這凸顯了大氣層變得多麽寒冷。）
loathe to put up with his mockery, gohan tried leaping up to prove him wrong, but there was only one problem – his foot wouldn\\u0027t leave the ground.（悟飯不願忍受他的嘲笑，試圖跳起來證明他錯了，但問題隻有一個——他的腳無法離開地麵。）
when he looked down, his gut wrenched.（當他低頭看時，他的內心感到絞痛。）
ice had taken hold of his foot.（冰已經固定住了他的腳。）
he tried to break free, but it wouldn\\u0027t budge.（他試圖掙脫，但它不動。）
polo flew at him, but gohan frantically sted him to send him away.（悟空飛向他，但悟飯瘋狂地發射能量把他擊退。）
the ice began to spread through his entire leg, even though he could only feel it around his foot.（冰開始蔓延到他整條腿，盡管他隻能感覺到它圍繞著他的腳。）
he looked at his arms – both now enshrouded in ice.（他看著自己的手臂——現在都被冰覆蓋著。）
shrieking in panic, gohan somehow broke his foot free from his shoe and flew as far away from the era as he could, as fast as he could.（悟飯驚慌地尖叫著，不知怎麽地將腳從鞋子中掙脫出來，盡可能遠、盡可能快地飛離了那個地方。）
eventually, his energy ran out and he copsed, falling onto his hands and knees on the floor.（最終，他的能量耗盡了，他倒在地板上，跪在地上。）
his body was shaking as he desperately heaved for oxygen, running ragged even after adjusted to the thin air.（他的身體顫抖著，拚命地唿吸著氧氣，即使適應了稀薄的空氣，仍然筋疲力盡。）
his heart pounded in his chest as nightmares of the all-enpassing ice consumed him.（他的心在胸腔裏砰砰直跳，全麵覆蓋的冰帶給他噩夢。）
he hadn\\u0027t even realized that the rest of his limbs were actually fine, and that only the one shoe he had left behind had actually been caught.（他甚至沒有意識到自己的其他四肢其實沒事，隻有他留下的那隻鞋子被冰所困住了。）
\\\"what the hell\\u0027s the matter with you?\\\" polo asked, flying back in.（\\\"你到底怎麽了？\\\"悟空問道，飛迴來。）
\\\"your foot got frozen up. big deal.\\\"（\\\"你的腳被凍住了，沒什麽大不了的。\\\"）
\\\"the ice…!\\\" gohan whimpered. \\\"it was…it was…\\\"（\\\"冰……！\\\"悟飯哀嚎道，\\\"它……它……\\\"）
\\\"was what?\\\" polo asked. \\\"it was hardly a threat. your own energy could have put it away.\\\"（\\\"是什麽？\\\"悟空問道，\\\"它幾乎算不上威脅。你自己的能量本來可以把它消滅的。\\\"）
whatever polo was saying, gohan didn\\u0027t register.（無論悟空說什麽，悟飯都沒有聽進去。）
the sound of his own heartbeat had drowned everything else out.（他自己心跳的聲音淹沒了其他一切聲音。）
feeling his grip slip again brought tears to the boy\\u0027s eyes.（再次感到手的控製力減弱讓悟飯的眼睛濕潤了。）
how could this still be happening? after months of istion, he still wasn\\u0027t anywhere close.（這怎麽還會發生？經過數月的孤立，他仍然沒有絲毫進展。）
\\\"what\\u0027s going on, really?\\\" polo asked.（\\\"到底發生了什麽？\\\"悟空問道。）
\\\"i highly doubt you\\u0027re that freaked out just over some ice.\\\"（\\\"我非常懷疑你就因為一些冰而害怕成這樣。\\\"）
\\\"i can\\u0027t,\\\" gohan groaned. \\\"i can\\u0027t…do it…it\\u0027s not enough!\\\"（\\\"我不行，\\\"悟飯呻吟道，\\\"我不行……做不到……還不夠！\\\"）
\\\"what\\u0027s wrong?!\\\" polo demanded. \\\"you can\\u0027t keep bottling it up.\\\"（\\\"
怎麽了？！\\\"悟空要求道，\\\"你不能一直憋著。\\\"）
\\\"it\\u0027s frieza!\\\" gohan finally choked out.（\\\"是弗利沙！\\\"悟飯終於喘不過氣來說出來。）
\\\"frieza…ice. tch. how banal.\\\"（\\\"弗利沙……冰。呸，多麽平庸。\\\"）
\\\"you don\\u0027t fucking get it!\\\" gohan snapped, sitting back up.（\\\"你他媽的根本不懂！\\\"悟飯怒斥道，重新坐直。）
he finally realized that his arms were still normal, though he kept moving them around to make sure.（他終於意識到他的手臂還是正常的，盡管他不停地擺動著手臂以確保。）
\\\"you didn\\u0027t see frieza turn a man\\u0027s arm into ice and destroy it!\\\"（\\\"你沒看到弗利沙把一個人的手臂變成冰然後摧毀嗎！\\\"）
\\\"what?\\\" polo asked, caught off-guard. even he sounded fearful.（\\\"什麽？\\\"悟空吃了一驚，甚至他聽起來都很害怕。）
gohan wiped off his eyes as his body kept shaking.（悟飯擦去眼睛，身體不停地顫抖著。）
polo was right – he couldn\\u0027t keep bottling everything up.（悟空說得對——他不能一直憋著。）
\\\"it\\u0027s been almost ten years…and i still can\\u0027t get it out of my head. i keep seeing everything i care about getting destroyed like that.\\\"（\\\"已經快十年了……可我還是無法忘懷。我一直都看到我所關心的一切都被摧毀成那樣。\\\"）
\\\"so it\\u0027s frieza\\u0027s power you fear,\\\" polo deduced.（\\\"所以你害怕的是弗利沙的力量，\\\"悟空推斷道。）
\\\"i thought i was getting somewhere…\\\" gohanmented. \\\"ever since that day, every time i think i\\u0027m turning a corner, that fucking ice keeps reminding me. that happened right after i took a whole army out by myself. it was the first time i ever actually felt strong for once. i wasn\\u0027t crying or getting pushed around. i even saved vegeta\\u0027s life…\\\"（\\\"我以為我已經取得了一些進展……\\\"悟飯哀歎道，\\\"自從那天以來，每當我覺得我正在轉過一個彎時，這該死的冰就會提醒我。那發生在我獨自擊敗一整支軍隊之後。那是我第一次真正感到自己很強大。我沒有哭泣，沒有被推來推去。我甚至還救了貝吉塔的命……\\\"）
he clenched his fist, trying to grasp that feeling of invincibility again. \\\"it could\\u0027ve all been over. right in the aftermath, my father made that wish to bring me back. the dragon even asked my permission.\\\"（他握緊拳頭，試圖再次抓住那種無敵的感覺，\\\"一切都可能結束了。就在之後，我的父親許願讓我迴來。龍甚至詢問了我的意願。\\\"）
\\\"seriously?\\\" gohan answered with a nod. \\\"it could\\u0027ve been all over. i would\\u0027ve been back here without a trace, but i turned it down. i bought into everything. i wanted to feel strong, i wanted to keep taking people down until i got to frieza, and then i realized i wasn\\u0027t anywhere fucking close.\\\"（\\\"真的？\\\"悟飯點頭迴答，\\\"一切都可能結束了。我會毫不留痕地迴到這裏，但我拒絕了。我相信了一切。我想感到強大，我想一直擊敗人們直到我打到弗利沙，然後我意識到我一點也不接近。\\\"）
he viciously punched his own foot, nearly cracking his knuckles. \\\"don\\u0027t you see now?! this was all my choice! i chose to keep doing this \\u0027cause deep down, i liked it. and it\\u0027s not even enough.\\\"（他狠狠地揍了自己的腳，幾乎把指關節弄裂了，\\\"你現在難道不明白嗎？！這都是我的選擇！因為我內心深處喜歡，我選擇繼續這樣做。可還遠遠不夠。\\\"）
a sharp pain stabbed at gohan\\u0027s head like a series of icepicks, forcing him to rub his temple.（劇痛刺痛著悟飯的頭，就像一係列冰錐，迫使他揉了揉太陽穴。）
\\\"everyone will die because of me…even if we managed to beat frieza.\\\"（\\\"每個人都會因為我而死……即使我們設法擊敗了弗利沙。\\\"）
\\\"so, the ice holds it all, then,\\\" polo said. \\\"everything you hate, everything you fear.\\\"（\\\"所以，冰包容了一切，\\\"悟空說道，\\\"你所討厭的一切，你所害怕的一切。\\\"）
\\\"everything i love…\\\" gohan blurted out.（\\\"還有我所愛的一切……\\\"悟飯脫口而出。）
it wasn\\u0027t just fear that the ice made gohan recall. it was arepa and her pale, blue eyes.（冰讓悟飯迴憶起來的不僅僅是恐懼，還有阿瑞帕和她蒼白的藍眼睛。）
a day may have only been going on outside, but he still had no idea if she was well or not.（外麵可能隻過了一天，但他仍然不知道她是否安好。）
she had been dragged into his life, and his fight, because
of that same assault on ka\\u0027s empire.（正是因為對卡布尼特帝國的襲擊，她被卷入了他的生活和戰鬥中。）
the eyes that granted arepa her beauty had cursed her to suffer the consequences of gohan\\u0027s actions.（給阿瑞帕帶來美麗的眼睛卻詛咒她要承受悟飯行動的後果。）
\\\"but it\\u0027s far more plicated than that.\\\"（但事實要比這複雜得多。）
\\\"polo finally brought his queen to the ying field.\\\"（悟空終於把他的皇後帶到了棋盤上。）
\\\"i am the demon king, the physical manifestation of the darkness lurking in some nameless namekian\\u0027s heart.\\\"（我是魔王，是那個無名邪惡得心髒中黑暗的具象化。）
\\\"but at the same time, i\\u0027m not.\\\"（但與此同時，我又不是。）
\\\"i\\u0027m my own man, with my own desires and goals.\\\"（我是我自己的人，有著自己的欲望和目標。）
\\\"gohan harkened back to his conversation with arepa, where he dered he would defeat frieza for his own self.\\\"（悟飯迴想起他與阿瑞帕的對話，他在那裏宣稱他會為了自己而擊敗弗利薩。）
\\\"after everything that had gone down since, he\\u0027d lost sight of it.\\\"（自那以後，他已經迷失了自己的目標。）
\\\"i have all of the demon king\\u0027s memories, but they\\u0027re just pictures in my head.\\\"（我擁有魔王的所有記憶，但它們隻是我腦海中的畫麵。）
\\\"i don\\u0027t feel anything when i recall your father killing him.\\\"（當我迴想起你的父親殺死他時，我不會感到任何情緒。）
\\\"i desire to defeat goku not for vengeance, not for world conquest, but simply for my pride as a martial artist.\\\"（我渴望擊敗悟空，不是為了報複，不是為了征服世界，隻是為了我作為一個武術家的自尊。）
\\\"that\\u0027s why i can\\u0027t ept my victory over him.\\\"（這就是為什麽我不能接受我對他的勝利。）
\\\"polo used a pawn to knock off one of gohan\\u0027s unused pawns.\\\"（悟空用一個兵卒擊倒了悟飯的一個未使用的兵卒。）
\\\"gohan sighed in frustration.\\\"（悟飯歎了口氣，感到沮喪。）
\\\"that mad scientist offered to turn me into an android because we had the same goal,\\\" polo exined.\\\"（那個瘋狂的科學家提出將我變成一個人造人，因為我們有著相同的目標，\\\"悟空解釋道。）
\\\"gohan stiffened at the memory ofpis.\\\"（悟飯對拉皮斯的記憶感到僵硬。）
\\\"i refused.\\\"（我拒絕了。）
\\\"i wouldn\\u0027t take shortcuts and i wouldn\\u0027t defeat goku as another man\\u0027s pawn.\\\"（我不會走捷徑，也不會把悟空打敗作為別人的棋子。）
\\\"gohan used his queen to knock off one of polo\\u0027s pawns.\\\"（悟飯用他的皇後擊倒了悟空的一個兵卒。）
\\\"so then why wake uppis andzuli?\\\"（那麽為什麽要喚醒拉皮斯和拉祖利呢？）
\\\"polo set his queen down, thinking the question over.\\\"（悟空放下他的皇後，思考著這個問題。）
\\\"he anxiously cracked his neck.\\\"（他焦慮地扭動著脖子。）
\\\"i thought they could handle your father\\u0027s friends.\\\"（我以為他們能夠對付你父親的朋友們。）
\\\"i didn\\u0027t really know just how powerful they actually were.\\\"（我並不真正知道他們實際上有多強大。）
\\\"as gohan moved his queen in front of the king, he wondered if vegeta had ever expected him to surpass him.\\\"（當悟飯把他的皇後移到國王前時，他想知道貝吉塔是否曾經預料到他會超過他。）
\\\"he had brought it up once purely out of sight, but vegeta truly might had feared it, at the very least.\\\"（他曾經純粹出於視線之外提到過這個問題，但貝吉塔可能真的害怕過，至少這樣說。）
\\\"i\\u0027m lucky they didn\\u0027t kill me once they figured it out.\\\"（幸運的是，他們發現後沒有殺了我。）
\\\"i was pretty rough on them.\\\"（我對他們夠狠的。）
\\\"gohan knocked over one of polo\\u0027sst pawns with his queen while studying his pensive expression.\\\"（悟飯用他的皇後擊倒了悟空最後的一個兵卒，同時研究著他的思索表情。）
\\\"do you regret it?\\\"（你後悔嗎？）
\\\"polo narrowed his eyes at gohan in focus, but diverted his attention towards the board.\\\"（悟空專注地瞪著悟飯，但把注意力轉向了棋盤。）
\\\"his queen had gohan\\u0027s king trapped.\\\"（他的皇後把悟飯的國王困住了。）
\\\"check.\\\"（將軍。）
\\\"gohan looked at the board with a growl.\\\"（悟飯咆哮著看著棋盤。）
\\\"he was stuck – he could move his queen in front of the king to protect it, but that would be dying the inevitable.\\\"（他陷入了困境-他可以把他的皇後移到國王前保護它，但那隻會推遲必然的結果。）
\\\"he had no moves left.\\\"（他沒有棋可走了。）
\\\"and thus, he got up and sted the entire board away.\\\"（因此，他站起來把整個棋盤炸毀了。）
\\\"and that\\u0027s why i keep having to zap a new one every damn day,\\\" polo
grumbled.（這就是為什麽我每天都不得不給他們來一記電擊的原因。）
\\\"you have pawns for a reason.\\\"（你有棋子是有原因的。）
\\\"use them.\\\"（好好利用它們。）
\\\"whatever…\\\" gohan marched to the lobby, wanting nothing to do with either meditation or polo.（無所謂……悟飯走向大廳，不想與冥想或悟空有任何關係。）
\\\"inside the lobby, he stopped at the kitchen table and stared at the blue scouter and the red bag of dragon balls.\\\"（在大廳裏，他停在廚房的桌子旁，盯著藍色的探測儀和紅色的龍珠袋。）
\\\"he took a seat and buried his head in his hand, wondering how much longer this would go on.\\\"（他坐下來，將頭埋在手中，想知道這種情況還要持續多久。）
\\\"but he couldn\\u0027t give up.\\\"（但他不能放棄。）
\\\"too many people saw the light within him.\\\"（太多人看到了他內心的光芒。）
\\\"four monthster, gohan sat in a void for the umpteenth time.\\\"（四個月後，悟飯又一次坐在了虛空中。）
\\\"his entire body shook as a vtile, green glow surrounded him.\\\"（他的整個身體都在顫抖，被一種不穩定的綠色光芒環繞著。）
\\\"polo had been standing behind him, his eyes on his tail.\\\"（悟空一直站在他身後，眼睛盯著他的尾巴。）
\\\"he was now on his fifth recement arm on either side after a few outbursts, and wouldn\\u0027t let it get that far again.\\\"（在幾次爆發後，他的雙側已經是第五次更換的手臂，他不會再讓事情變得那麽嚴重了。）
\\\"gohan!\\\" he shouted.（“悟飯！”他喊道。）
\\\"he didn\\u0027t turn around.\\\"（他沒有轉身。）
\\\"polo patiently exhaled, staying perfectly still.\\\"（悟空耐心地唿出一口氣，保持完全靜止。）
\\\"a minuteter, gohan turned around.\\\"（一分鍾後，悟飯轉過身來。）
\\\"his eyes were bloodshot, his brows curled in a forlorn whimper.\\\"（他的眼睛布滿了血絲，眉毛緊鎖，發出淒涼的嗚咽聲。）
\\\"he had been sitting in that same position for days, refusing to eat, sleep, or engage with polo at all.\\\"（他已經坐在那個同樣的位置上好幾天了，拒絕進食、睡覺或與悟空交流。）
\\\"you\\u0027re miserable, kid.\\\"（“你很悲慘，孩子。”）
\\\"gohan\\u0027s ragged breaths grew louder.\\\"（悟飯的喘息聲變得更大聲。）
\\\"his face carried a mixture of despair, confusion, and exhaustion.\\\"（他的臉上帶著絕望、困惑和疲憊的混合表情。）
\\\"l-let\\u0027s just go back... i-i can\\u0027t...!\\\"（“讓我們迴去吧...我...我不能...！”）
\\\"this is part of the process,\\\" polo calmly replied.（“這是過程的一部分，”悟空平靜地迴答道。）
\\\"in this void, you have nothing to distract you.\\\"（“在這個虛空中，你沒有任何分心的事物。”）
\\\"it\\u0027s just you and your thoughts, with no way of leaving the darkest corners.\\\"（“隻有你和你的思緒，無法離開最黑暗的角落。”）
\\\"it\\u0027s not doing anything!\\\" gohan shouted.（“這一點用都沒有！”悟飯喊道。）
\\\"you have to confront your lowest thoughts.\\\"（“你必須麵對自己最低的想法。”）
\\\"you don\\u0027t think i wake up in misery every day, either?\\\" polo asked.（“你不覺得我每天醒來都是痛苦的嗎？”悟空問道。）
\\\"constant defeat at your father\\u0027s hands, embarrassment at your hands, wondering if i truly have what it takes.\\\"（“不斷被你父親打敗，在你手中感到尷尬，不知道我是否真的擁有必要的能力。”）
\\\"i am constantly confronted with my futility.\\\"（“我不斷地麵對自己的無用。”）
\\\"shut up!\\\" gohan snapped.（“閉嘴！”悟飯怒喝道。）
\\\"his pupils flickered gold, which made polo swallow.\\\"（他的瞳孔閃爍著金色，讓悟空咽了口水。）
\\\"you just sound like vegeta!\\\"（“你聽起來就像貝吉塔！”）
\\\"when gohan stood up, polo squared his shoulders, knowing what was about to happen.\\\"（當悟飯站起來時，悟空挺直了肩膀，知道即將發生什麽。）
\\\"that green aura exploded around him again.\\\"（那股綠色光芒再次在他周圍爆發。）
\\\"you\\u0027re no different!\\\"（“你和他們沒什麽不同！”）
\\\"his eyes became gold again, and a secondter he flew at polo.\\\"（他的眼睛再次變成了金色，一秒鍾後他向悟空飛去。）
\\\"the namekian evaded the punch thrown his way by a mere inch and flew away as fast as he could while gohan broke his fall.\\\"（這個純粹的一英寸閃避了他的一擊，而悟飯摔倒了，他盡可能地飛快飛走。）
\\\"the rabid teenager had closed the gap soon after, however, and mmed polo into the floor with two fists.\\\"（然而，這個狂
熱的少年很快就縮小了差距，用兩隻拳頭猛擊悟空，將他砸到了地板上。）
\\\"when polonded, gohan sted down with both feet extended, intending to just stomp him into mush.\\\"（悟空著陸時，悟飯用兩隻伸出的腳猛烈地猛踩，打算將他踩成肉泥。）
\\\"at the veryst second, polo jumped out of the way, making gohan crashnd with his feet stuck in the ground.\\\"（在最後一刻，悟空跳了開來，讓悟飯在腳卡在地麵上的情況下墜落。）
\\\"taking advantage, polo outstretched his arm and squeezed gohan\\u0027s tail, bringing him down instantly.\\\"（趁機，悟空伸直了胳膊，捏住了悟飯的尾巴，瞬間將他製服。）
\\\"polo pulled him in with his retracting arm, clutching his burning chest with the other hand.\\\"（悟空用收迴的胳膊將他拉了進來，另一隻手緊緊抓住他灼熱的胸口。）
\\\"he only had gohan\\u0027s erratic, error-prone mind state in that form to thank for even being alive.\\\"（他隻能感謝悟飯那種不穩定、容易出錯的心態，才能活下來。）
\\\"you have to get a hold of yourself,\\\" polo ordered as he felt gohan\\u0027s energy falling down to normal.（“你必須控製住自己，”悟空命令道，感受到悟飯的能量恢複正常。）
\\\"running does nothing but distance you from your goal.\\\"（“逃避隻會使你離目標更遠。”）
\\\"gohan\\u0027s eyes, jet ck again, spilled tears as polo let go.\\\"（悟飯的眼睛再次變成烏黑的，當悟空鬆開時，淚水湧出。）
\\\"he had been snapping back to normal faster, at least.\\\"（至少他恢複正常的速度更快了。）
\\\"with a loud shriek, he mmed the ground in frustration.\\\"（他沮喪地發出一聲尖叫，猛烈地砸向地麵。）\\\"you want to be two different people, that\\u0027s your problem,\\\" polo said.（“你想成為兩個不同的人，這就是你的問題，”悟空說道。）
\\\"you don\\u0027t want to be that weak, sensitive kid that was taken by raditz, but you don\\u0027t want to be the monster that\\u0027s murdered trillions either.\\\"（“你既不想成為被拉迪茨帶走的那個軟弱敏感的孩子，又不想成為那個屠戮了無數生命的怪物。”）
\\\"you have to find the center.\\\"（“你必須找到平衡點。”）
\\\"only you know what\\u0027s actually in your heart.\\\"（“隻有你自己知道你的內心實際上是什麽。”）
\\\"and if you\\u0027re so set on trying to get the dragon balls to wish people back, you\\u0027re clearly not as bad as you think.\\\"（“如果你堅決要去尋找龍珠讓人們複活，顯然你並沒有你所想象的那麽壞。”）
\\\"bullshit,\\\" gohan said, his voice heavy.（“胡說八道，”悟飯說道，聲音低沉。）
\\\"it won\\u0027t change anything! i\\u0027m still him... i\\u0027m still the one who killed them all, even if they e back!\\\"（“這不會改變任何事情！我依然是他...我依然是那個殺死他們所有人的人，即使他們複活！”）
\\\"well, you have me there,\\\" polo quipped, though he was still serious.（“好吧，你說得對，”悟空嘲笑道，盡管他仍然很認真。）
\\\"but if you want to continue living, then that means acknowledging your past actions, knowing the reason for those actions, and knowing who you are now.\\\"（“但是，如果你想繼續活下去，那就意味著承認你過去的行為，了解這些行為的原因，知道你現在是誰。”）
\\\"frieza\\u0027s army must have been a personal hell, but it\\u0027s enabled you to be stronger.\\\"（“弗利薩的軍隊一定是個人的地獄，但它使你變得更強大。”）
\\\"tougher.\\\"（“更堅強。”）
polo grabbed gohan by his hair and lifted his head up, forcing him to look him in the eye.（悟空抓住悟飯的頭發，抬起他的頭，強迫他與他對視。）
\\\"you are not that kid anymore.\\\"（“你不再是那個孩子了。”）
\\\"there\\u0027s not a person alive on this who can push you around.\\\"（“在這個星球上沒有人能欺負你。”）
\\\"and if you defeat frieza, you will no longer be bound by any trace of his organization or influence.\\\"（“如果你擊敗弗利薩，你將不再受到他組織或影響的任何束縛。”）
\\\"you can be exactly the person you think you should be.\\\"（“你可以成為你認為應該成為的人。”）
\\\"i\\u0027ll still be a murderer,\\\" gohan spat through his teeth.（“我依然是一個殺人犯，”悟飯咬牙切齒地說道。）
\\\"then change your reputation,\\\" polo growled.（“那就改變你的名聲，”悟空咆哮道。）
\\\"the very concept disgusts me, but if you want to clear your name and prove you\\u0027re better, then don\\u0027t just stop at bringing people back.\\\"（“這個概念讓我厭惡，但是如果你想洗清你的名聲，證明你更好，那就不要僅僅滿足於讓人複活。”）
\\\"help people.\\\"（“幫助他人。”）
\\\"create a world that isn\\u0027t in danger from people like frieza, or vegeta, or me.\\\"（“創造一個不會受到弗利薩、貝吉塔或者我這樣的人威脅的世界。”）
\\\"or who you were forced to be.\\\"（“也不會受到你被迫成為的那個人的威脅。”）
polo let gohan go, letting him sink down to the floor.（悟空放開了悟飯，讓他沉到了地板上。）
\\\"the half-saiyan didn\\u0027t move, sullenly looking down.\\\"（這個半人半賽亞人沒有動，鬱鬱寡歡地低頭。）
\\\"opting to give him space, polo turned around and headed for the lobby.\\\"（選擇給他空間，悟空轉身走向大廳。）
\\\"you don\\u0027t have it all figured out, either,\\\" gohan muttered.（“你也沒有完全搞清楚，”悟飯嘀咕著。）
\\\"with a vein in his head swelling, polo swung back around.\\\"（悟空的頭腦中的血管膨脹，他又轉過身來。）
\\\"gohan\\u0027s face was
neither spiteful nor taunting, just exhausted.\\\"（悟飯的臉既不惡毒也不嘲諷，隻是疲憊不堪。）
\\\"i mean, you\\u0027re mostly there, but... i think you hate the fact that you\\u0027re not as bad as you think.\\\"（“我的意思是，你大部分都明白了，但是...我覺得你討厭你並沒有你所想象的那麽壞。”）
polo frowned deeply; since when had this brat been so lucid?（悟空深深皺起了眉頭；這小子什麽時候變得如此清醒了？）
\\\"gohan smiled, weakly.\\\"（悟飯微笑著，虛弱地。）
\\\"you want to be the demon king, but you\\u0027re not.\\\"（“你想成為魔王，但你不是。”）
polo closed his eyes, despising every single word the kid had spoken.（悟空閉上了眼睛，對這個孩子說的每一個字都感到厭惡。）
\\\"with a sigh, he sat down.\\\"（他歎了口氣，坐了下來。）
\\\"so it seems.\\\"（“看來是這樣。”）
they stayed like that, just sitting down in silence; there was no bickering, no fighting, just peace.（他們就這樣靜靜地坐著，沒有爭吵，沒有打鬥，隻有平靜。）
\\\"polo intermittently looked up at gohan, just to see if he was still restless.\\\"（“悟空時不時抬頭看著悟飯，隻是為了看看他是否還是那麽焦躁不安。”）
\\\"from the outside, he seemed to at least try considering polo\\u0027s advice.\\\"（從外表上看，他似乎至少試著考慮了悟空的建議。）
\\\"the former demon nsmen still couldn\\u0027t wrap his head around things getting to this point – willingly spending time with the son of his lifelong enemy.\\\"（這個前魔族成員仍然無法理解事情為何會走到這一步——願意與他終生的敵人的兒子共度時光。）
\\\"being his de facto life coach, even.\\\"（甚至成為他的事實上的生活教練。）
\\\"the original polo – the true polo - must have been looking up in disgust.\\\"（原本的悟空——真正的悟空——一定對此感到厭惡。）
\\\"ever since you and vegeta arrived and revealed this frieza business, i\\u0027ve had this sinking feeling that the end of my life is drawing near.\\\"（“自從你和貝吉塔到來並揭示了這個弗利薩的事情以來，我就有一種即將離世的沉重感覺。”）
gohan looked up, stunned by how polo had chosen to break what felt like an hour of silence.（悟飯抬起頭，驚訝於悟空選擇打破了仿佛已經持續了一個小時的沉默。）
polo restlessly squeezed his fists.（悟空焦躁地握緊了拳頭。）
\\\"it\\u0027s not fear, but more a premonition.\\\"（“這不是恐懼，而更像是一種預感。”）
\\\"whether it\\u0027s that fossil on the other side of this room finally croaking, or somebody in frieza\\u0027s army getting me.\\\"（“無論是這個房間另一邊的那個古董終於死掉了，還是弗利薩的軍隊中的某個人要害我。”）
\\\"i can almost feel it.\\\"（“我幾乎能感覺到。”）
\\\"damn that old bastard and his divine foresight.\\\"（“該死的老東西和他的神聖預知。”）
\\\"i\\u0027m forced to feel his thoughts.\\\"（“我被迫感受到他的思想。”）
\\\"that\\u0027s why we keep training,\\\" gohan said, his voice bolder.（“這就是為什麽我們不斷訓練，”悟飯說道，聲音更加堅定。）
\\\"i can\\u0027t die.\\\"（“我不能死。”）
\\\"not after everything i\\u0027ve gone through.\\\"（“不在經曆過這一切之後。”）
at least the boy had some level of conviction.（至少這個孩子有一定的信念。）
\\\"it was a strange feeling, being able to foresee his own demise even if he didn\\u0027t know how it would e.\\\"（“這是一種奇怪的感覺，即使不知道死亡的具體方式，他也能預見自己的死亡。”）
\\\"he stared at gohan\\u0027s tattered, purple uniform with bated breath.\\\"（他屏住唿吸盯著悟飯那破爛的紫色製服。）
\\\"perhaps on some level, he had wanted to leave something of himself behind.\\\"（也許在某種程度上，他希望留下一些自己的東西。）
\\\"do you ever wonder about namek?\\\" gohan asked.（“你有沒有想過那美克星？”悟飯問道。）
\\\ vegeta\\u0027s gone, but sometimes i\\u0027m curious about what it\\u0027s like...\\\"（“貝吉塔星消失了，但有時我很好奇那裏是什麽樣子的...”）
\\\"what\\u0027s there to wonder? i didn\\u0027t even know that part of me until vegeta broke the news.\\\"（“有什麽好奇的？我甚至不知道那部分的存在，直到貝吉塔告訴我。”）
\\\"i have all of the demon king\\u0027s memories from before his death, and the demon king has all of god\\u0027s memories from before the split.\\\"（“我擁有魔王死前的所有記憶，而魔王則擁有在分裂之前的上帝的所有記憶。”）
\\\"if i had to guess, the only trace of that left is our
nguage.\\\"（“如果我猜的話，那個星球唯一的痕跡就是我們的語言。”）
\\\"besides that, it\\u0027s just decades of sitting in some wastnd on earth.\\\"（“除此之外，它隻是在地球上的一片荒地上度過的幾十年。”）
in truth, he did wonder.（事實上，他確實很好奇。）
\\\"what did these namekians look like? what did they live like? were they an entire of meek, faux-philosophical bores like god? were they skilled martial artists? were some of the demon king\\u0027s customs subconscious memories of the? had the dragon balls been a subconscious memory?\\\"（“那些那美克星人是什麽樣子的？他們的生活是什麽樣子的？他們是不是像上帝那樣溫順、偽哲學的無聊人？他們是熟練的武術家嗎？魔王的一些習俗是對星球的潛意識記憶嗎？龍珠是潛意識記憶嗎？”）
\\\"they were all questions that swirled his mind, much to his chagrin.\\\"（“這些問題都在他腦海中迴旋，令他感到煩惱。”）\\\"sometimes we fixate on impossible shit, y\\u0027know?\\\" gohan said.（“有時候我們會固執於不可能的事情，你知道嗎？”悟飯說。）
\\\"like, what would my father be like if he never hit his head? it\\u0027s hard to imagine that guy being just as nasty as vegeta, nappa, and raditz.\\\"（“比如，如果我父親沒有撞到頭，他會是什麽樣子呢？很難想象那個人會像貝吉塔、納帕和拉迪茨那樣狠毒。”）
poloughed, admittedly having visualized it himself in his idle time over the years.（悟空笑了起來，坦白說他自己在過去的空閑時間裏也曾想象過。）
goku of all people, d in saiyan armor with one of those sadistic smirks on his face.（果然，穿著賽亞人盔甲的悟空臉上露出了那種嗜血的笑容。）
a truly absurd, impossible image.（這是一個真正荒謬而不可能的畫麵。）
\\\"i have a feeling your father would have been an idiot all the same,\\\" polo replied.（“我有種感覺，你父親始終都是個白癡。”悟空迴答道。）
\\\"i wish i could figure out what he really thinks of me,\\\" gohan said, folding his arms again.（“我希望我能弄清楚他對我的真正看法，”悟飯又折起了雙臂。）
\\\"he acts like he\\u0027s okay, and maybe he really is, but i know he wishes i wasn\\u0027t…\\\" he spread his arms, gesturing towards his body.（“他表現得好像沒事，也許他真的沒事，但我知道他希望我不是……”他伸開雙臂，指著自己的身體。）
\\\"this.\\\"（“這個。”）
polo shook his head.（悟空搖了搖頭。）
\\\"kid, your father damn near sees me as his friend, and i\\u0027ve very literally killed him and threatened everyone he\\u0027s cared about.\\\"（“孩子，你父親幾乎把我當成了他的朋友，而我確實曾經殺過他並威脅過他關心的每個人。”）
\\\"i highly doubt he truly thinks less of his own seed.\\\"（“我非常懷疑他真的會看低自己的後代。”）
\\\"furthermore, why do you care? only you know who you truly are, and your opinion is the only one that actually matters.\\\"（“而且，你為什麽在意呢？隻有你知道你真正是誰，你的意見才是唯一真正重要的。”）
\\\"if it weren\\u0027t the case, we wouldn\\u0027t be here right now.\\\"（“如果不是這樣的話，我們現在就不會在這裏了。”）
\\\"he\\u0027s my father,\\\" gohan contested.（“他是我的父親，”悟飯爭辯道。）
\\\"i\\u0027m not like you – i still feel the old memories about myself.\\\"（“我不像你——我仍然記得自己的舊記憶。”）
\\\"i remember how much he and mom used to gush over me.\\\"（“我記得他和媽媽曾經有多麽喜歡我。”）
\\\"i remember…\\\"（“我記得……”）
gohan choked up.（悟飯哽咽了。）
\\\"for once, he didn\\u0027t cry, but he had to stop and gather himself.\\\"（這一次，他沒有哭泣，但他不得不停下來，讓自己冷靜下來。）
\\\"i remember how much i loved them.\\\"（“我記得我有多麽愛他們。”）
gohan buried his head in both hands, looking up at the vast walls.（悟飯把頭埋在雙手之間，抬頭望著遼闊的牆壁。）
\\\"my mom didn\\u0027t even want me to be a fighter.\\\"（“我媽媽甚至不希望我成為一名戰士。”）
\\\"how i am now? i don\\u0027t know how she\\u0027s even been able to look at me.\\\"（“我現在的樣子？我不知道她是怎麽能看得下去的。”）
polo nodded, recalling chi-chi\\u0027s horror and denial when she first saw gohan for the first time.（悟空點了點頭，迴想起琪琪第一次見到悟飯時的恐懼和否認。）
\\\"she had even tried to attack him for stating the truth of the matter, even without any judgment or condemnation.\\\"（“她甚至試圖攻擊他，僅僅是因為他陳述了事實，沒有任何判斷或譴責。”）
\\\"vegeta… that\\u0027s the only father figure i\\u0027ve had,\\\" gohan said with a bitterugh.（“貝吉塔……那是我唯一的父親形象，”悟飯苦笑道。）
\\\"and i would have killed him, too.\\\"（“而且我也會殺了他。”）
\\\"you may have been in an unhinged state, but is it really so bad that you would have pursued vengeance towards somebody who\\u0027s subjected you to grief?\\\"（“也許你當時情緒失控，但對於那些給你帶來痛苦的人，你追求複仇真的那麽糟糕嗎？”）
\\\"you don\\u0027t get it,\\\" gohan said.（“你不明白。”悟飯說。）
\\\"you\\u0027re right.\\\"（“你說得對。”）
\\\"i do resent him.\\\"（“我確實怨恨他。”）
\\\"but all that es from that weak little baby that raditz took.\\\"（“但這一切都源於那個拉迪茨帶走的弱小的嬰兒。”）
\\\"vegeta taught me how to actually be strong.\\\"（“貝吉塔教會
了我如何真正變得強大。”）
\\\"he\\u0027s saved my life.\\\"（“他救了我的命。”）
\\\"even when i thought he didn\\u0027t give a shit about me, he saved arepa for no reason than to do right by me.\\\"（“即使我認為他根本不在乎我，他也救了阿瑞帕，隻是為了對我做對的事。”）
\\\"that was hardly the first time polo had heard gohan speak that name, arepa.\\\"（這不是悟空第一次聽到悟飯說那個名字，阿瑞帕。）
\\\"he would frequently say it in his sleep; even during his meditation.\\\"（“他經常在睡覺時說出來，甚至在冥想時也會說。”）
\\\"clearly, whomever this person was meant a lot to gohan.\\\"（“顯然，這個人對悟飯來說意義重大。”）
\\\"hell, he might not have been going through all of these struggles if they were around.\\\"（“他甚至可能不會經曆所有這些掙紮，如果他們在身邊的話。”）
\\\"we\\u0027re back to square one, then,\\\" polo said.（“那麽我們又迴到原點了。”悟空說。）
\\\"there\\u0027s one part of you that resents everything vegeta put you through, and another part that rejects the very idea.\\\"（“你的一部分心裏對貝吉塔使你經曆的一切懷有怨恨，而另一部分則完全反對這個想法。”）
\\\"with frieza, it\\u0027s simple – he\\u0027s never been anything but terrible, correct?\\\"（“對弗利薩來說，這很簡單——他從來沒有做過任何好事，對嗎？”）
gohan nodded.（悟飯點了點頭。）
\\\"but from the sound of it, vegeta is several things to you at once.\\\"（“但從你的說法來看，貝吉塔對你來說同時具有多種身份。”）
\\\"if you killed frieza, you would be happy.\\\"（“如果你殺了弗利薩，你會感到高興。”）
\\\"if you killed vegeta, even if you wanted to, you\\u0027d ultimately hate yourself for it.\\\"（“即使你想殺貝吉塔，你最終也會憎恨自己。”）
\\\"you need to learn how to bnce it all out.\\\"（“你需要學會如何平衡這一切。”）
gohan shut his eyes, exhaling through his nose.（悟飯閉上眼睛，通過鼻子唿出氣來。）
\\\"i guess.\\\"（“我想是吧。”）
he kept his eyes closed as a yellow glow enveloped his body.（他閉著眼睛，全身籠罩在黃色的光芒中。）
from the way his ki felt, polo could discern he was making a stronger effort to meditate.（從他的氣感覺來看，悟空可以斷定他正在更努力地冥想。）
for once, he was actually getting through.（這一次，他真的取得了進展。）
gohan flew as fast as he could, evading the stretchy green arms pursuing his legs.（悟飯以最快的速度飛行，躲避著追逐他的拉長的綠色手臂。）
the further he flew, the chillier his body became.（他飛得越遠，他的身體就越寒冷。）
he turned around and fired a st, but polo easily kicked it away.（他轉身發射了一道能量波，但悟空輕易地踢開了它。）
a split-secondter, the namekian was right in front of him and delivered a brutal kick to his jaw.（一刹那後，這個納美克星人就站在他麵前，給了他一記狠狠的踢擊。）
gohan dropped down, breaking his fall with a flip tond on his feet.（悟飯落了下來，用翻身來緩衝著落，穩穩地站在腳上。）
it was month nine, from gohan\\u0027s estimation.（從悟飯的估計來看，這已經是第九個月了。）
he could feel his body growing, and it had often been a painful experience even if he came out stronger for it.（他能感覺到自己的身體在成長，這常常是一種痛苦的經曆，盡管他因此變得更強大。）
a month earlier, polo had to zap a new uniform for him after his body ripped through the older one.（一個月前，悟空的身體撕裂了舊的製服，悟空不得不給他傳送了一套新的製服。）
now 14 years old, his voice was just a tad deeper and scratchier too.（現在14歲了，他的聲音稍微低沉和嘶啞了一些。）
but that wasn\\u0027t the most annoying development.（但這不是最令人討厭的事情。）
with ample time to train in heavier gravity and erratic conditions while gohan meditated, polo had bee a truly worthy opponent.（在悟飯冥想時，悟空有充足的時間在更重的重力和不穩定的環境中進行訓練，因此悟空已經成為了一個真正的強大對手。）
save for gohan\\u0027spses of rage that drove him to that insidious transformation, their spars were no longer one-sided beatdowns.（除了悟飯因憤怒而發生的那種邪惡的轉變之外，他們的格鬥已經不再是一方麵的壓倒性勝利。）
despite all of his identity issues, gohan knew one thing for certain – he was a saiyan, and wouldn\\u0027t ept anybody besting him in battle.（盡管悟飯存在著諸多身份
問題，但他確信一件事——他是一個賽亞人，不會接受任何人在戰鬥中勝過他。）
and thus, he flew right back at polo.（因此，他直接向悟空飛去。）
the two warriors in purple met in a sh, exchanging a flurry of attacks with petitive smirks on their faces.（這兩位身著紫色的戰士在一次衝突中相遇，他們的臉上帶著競爭的笑容，交換著一連串的攻擊。）
in many ways, the constant sparring had dulled their hostility.（從許多方麵來看，不斷的切磋已經減輕了他們之間的敵意。）
unfortunately for gohan, the increasingly cold weather had taken a toll, sapping him of his energy.（不幸的是，越來越冷的天氣對悟飯產生了影響，耗盡了他的能量。）
polo, on the other hand, hadn\\u0027t even registered the weather thus far and knocked gohan all the way down to the floor.（另一方麵，悟空甚至沒有注意到這種天氣，把悟飯打倒在地。）
hended on his feet again, panting heavily as he looked up.（他再次站起來，大口喘著氣，抬頭看著前方。）
vapors left his mouth with every breath.（每一次唿吸，他的嘴裏都冒著水蒸氣。）
the namekian phased in front of him and aimed a kick at his chest.（納美克星人出現在他麵前，朝他的胸口踢去。）
while gohan blocked it with his forearm, he flew away in lieu of triggering another exchange of punches and kicks.（盡管悟飯用前臂擋住了它，但他卻飛離了現場，以避免引發另一輪拳腳交鋒。）flying brought gohan further into the cold depths, however.（然而，飛行將悟飯帶入了更加寒冷的深處。）
his entire body shivered, having never experienced conditions this frigid in his time in the room.（他的整個身體顫抖著，從未在房間裏經曆過如此寒冷的條件。）
with his energy running low, he could do little to resist the punch polo delivered to his stomach, falling to the floor while feeling bile rise to his throat.（能量所剩無幾，他幾乎無力抵抗悟空對他的一擊，摔倒在地上，感覺膽汁上湧到喉嚨。）
\\\"you humans and your skin,\\\" polo taunted.（\\\"你們人類和你們的皮膚，\\\"悟空譏笑道。）
\\\"c-can\\u0027t handle a little chill.\\\"（\\\"連一點點寒冷都受不了。\\\"）
of course, even polo had a slight shiver, which underscored just how absurdly cold the atmosphere had bee.（當然，即使是悟空也微微顫抖了一下，這凸顯了大氣層變得多麽寒冷。）
loathe to put up with his mockery, gohan tried leaping up to prove him wrong, but there was only one problem – his foot wouldn\\u0027t leave the ground.（悟飯不願忍受他的嘲笑，試圖跳起來證明他錯了，但問題隻有一個——他的腳無法離開地麵。）
when he looked down, his gut wrenched.（當他低頭看時，他的內心感到絞痛。）
ice had taken hold of his foot.（冰已經固定住了他的腳。）
he tried to break free, but it wouldn\\u0027t budge.（他試圖掙脫，但它不動。）
polo flew at him, but gohan frantically sted him to send him away.（悟空飛向他，但悟飯瘋狂地發射能量把他擊退。）
the ice began to spread through his entire leg, even though he could only feel it around his foot.（冰開始蔓延到他整條腿，盡管他隻能感覺到它圍繞著他的腳。）
he looked at his arms – both now enshrouded in ice.（他看著自己的手臂——現在都被冰覆蓋著。）
shrieking in panic, gohan somehow broke his foot free from his shoe and flew as far away from the era as he could, as fast as he could.（悟飯驚慌地尖叫著，不知怎麽地將腳從鞋子中掙脫出來，盡可能遠、盡可能快地飛離了那個地方。）
eventually, his energy ran out and he copsed, falling onto his hands and knees on the floor.（最終，他的能量耗盡了，他倒在地板上，跪在地上。）
his body was shaking as he desperately heaved for oxygen, running ragged even after adjusted to the thin air.（他的身體顫抖著，拚命地唿吸著氧氣，即使適應了稀薄的空氣，仍然筋疲力盡。）
his heart pounded in his chest as nightmares of the all-enpassing ice consumed him.（他的心在胸腔裏砰砰直跳，全麵覆蓋的冰帶給他噩夢。）
he hadn\\u0027t even realized that the rest of his limbs were actually fine, and that only the one shoe he had left behind had actually been caught.（他甚至沒有意識到自己的其他四肢其實沒事，隻有他留下的那隻鞋子被冰所困住了。）
\\\"what the hell\\u0027s the matter with you?\\\" polo asked, flying back in.（\\\"你到底怎麽了？\\\"悟空問道，飛迴來。）
\\\"your foot got frozen up. big deal.\\\"（\\\"你的腳被凍住了，沒什麽大不了的。\\\"）
\\\"the ice…!\\\" gohan whimpered. \\\"it was…it was…\\\"（\\\"冰……！\\\"悟飯哀嚎道，\\\"它……它……\\\"）
\\\"was what?\\\" polo asked. \\\"it was hardly a threat. your own energy could have put it away.\\\"（\\\"是什麽？\\\"悟空問道，\\\"它幾乎算不上威脅。你自己的能量本來可以把它消滅的。\\\"）
whatever polo was saying, gohan didn\\u0027t register.（無論悟空說什麽，悟飯都沒有聽進去。）
the sound of his own heartbeat had drowned everything else out.（他自己心跳的聲音淹沒了其他一切聲音。）
feeling his grip slip again brought tears to the boy\\u0027s eyes.（再次感到手的控製力減弱讓悟飯的眼睛濕潤了。）
how could this still be happening? after months of istion, he still wasn\\u0027t anywhere close.（這怎麽還會發生？經過數月的孤立，他仍然沒有絲毫進展。）
\\\"what\\u0027s going on, really?\\\" polo asked.（\\\"到底發生了什麽？\\\"悟空問道。）
\\\"i highly doubt you\\u0027re that freaked out just over some ice.\\\"（\\\"我非常懷疑你就因為一些冰而害怕成這樣。\\\"）
\\\"i can\\u0027t,\\\" gohan groaned. \\\"i can\\u0027t…do it…it\\u0027s not enough!\\\"（\\\"我不行，\\\"悟飯呻吟道，\\\"我不行……做不到……還不夠！\\\"）
\\\"what\\u0027s wrong?!\\\" polo demanded. \\\"you can\\u0027t keep bottling it up.\\\"（\\\"
怎麽了？！\\\"悟空要求道，\\\"你不能一直憋著。\\\"）
\\\"it\\u0027s frieza!\\\" gohan finally choked out.（\\\"是弗利沙！\\\"悟飯終於喘不過氣來說出來。）
\\\"frieza…ice. tch. how banal.\\\"（\\\"弗利沙……冰。呸，多麽平庸。\\\"）
\\\"you don\\u0027t fucking get it!\\\" gohan snapped, sitting back up.（\\\"你他媽的根本不懂！\\\"悟飯怒斥道，重新坐直。）
he finally realized that his arms were still normal, though he kept moving them around to make sure.（他終於意識到他的手臂還是正常的，盡管他不停地擺動著手臂以確保。）
\\\"you didn\\u0027t see frieza turn a man\\u0027s arm into ice and destroy it!\\\"（\\\"你沒看到弗利沙把一個人的手臂變成冰然後摧毀嗎！\\\"）
\\\"what?\\\" polo asked, caught off-guard. even he sounded fearful.（\\\"什麽？\\\"悟空吃了一驚，甚至他聽起來都很害怕。）
gohan wiped off his eyes as his body kept shaking.（悟飯擦去眼睛，身體不停地顫抖著。）
polo was right – he couldn\\u0027t keep bottling everything up.（悟空說得對——他不能一直憋著。）
\\\"it\\u0027s been almost ten years…and i still can\\u0027t get it out of my head. i keep seeing everything i care about getting destroyed like that.\\\"（\\\"已經快十年了……可我還是無法忘懷。我一直都看到我所關心的一切都被摧毀成那樣。\\\"）
\\\"so it\\u0027s frieza\\u0027s power you fear,\\\" polo deduced.（\\\"所以你害怕的是弗利沙的力量，\\\"悟空推斷道。）
\\\"i thought i was getting somewhere…\\\" gohanmented. \\\"ever since that day, every time i think i\\u0027m turning a corner, that fucking ice keeps reminding me. that happened right after i took a whole army out by myself. it was the first time i ever actually felt strong for once. i wasn\\u0027t crying or getting pushed around. i even saved vegeta\\u0027s life…\\\"（\\\"我以為我已經取得了一些進展……\\\"悟飯哀歎道，\\\"自從那天以來，每當我覺得我正在轉過一個彎時，這該死的冰就會提醒我。那發生在我獨自擊敗一整支軍隊之後。那是我第一次真正感到自己很強大。我沒有哭泣，沒有被推來推去。我甚至還救了貝吉塔的命……\\\"）
he clenched his fist, trying to grasp that feeling of invincibility again. \\\"it could\\u0027ve all been over. right in the aftermath, my father made that wish to bring me back. the dragon even asked my permission.\\\"（他握緊拳頭，試圖再次抓住那種無敵的感覺，\\\"一切都可能結束了。就在之後，我的父親許願讓我迴來。龍甚至詢問了我的意願。\\\"）
\\\"seriously?\\\" gohan answered with a nod. \\\"it could\\u0027ve been all over. i would\\u0027ve been back here without a trace, but i turned it down. i bought into everything. i wanted to feel strong, i wanted to keep taking people down until i got to frieza, and then i realized i wasn\\u0027t anywhere fucking close.\\\"（\\\"真的？\\\"悟飯點頭迴答，\\\"一切都可能結束了。我會毫不留痕地迴到這裏，但我拒絕了。我相信了一切。我想感到強大，我想一直擊敗人們直到我打到弗利沙，然後我意識到我一點也不接近。\\\"）
he viciously punched his own foot, nearly cracking his knuckles. \\\"don\\u0027t you see now?! this was all my choice! i chose to keep doing this \\u0027cause deep down, i liked it. and it\\u0027s not even enough.\\\"（他狠狠地揍了自己的腳，幾乎把指關節弄裂了，\\\"你現在難道不明白嗎？！這都是我的選擇！因為我內心深處喜歡，我選擇繼續這樣做。可還遠遠不夠。\\\"）
a sharp pain stabbed at gohan\\u0027s head like a series of icepicks, forcing him to rub his temple.（劇痛刺痛著悟飯的頭，就像一係列冰錐，迫使他揉了揉太陽穴。）
\\\"everyone will die because of me…even if we managed to beat frieza.\\\"（\\\"每個人都會因為我而死……即使我們設法擊敗了弗利沙。\\\"）
\\\"so, the ice holds it all, then,\\\" polo said. \\\"everything you hate, everything you fear.\\\"（\\\"所以，冰包容了一切，\\\"悟空說道，\\\"你所討厭的一切，你所害怕的一切。\\\"）
\\\"everything i love…\\\" gohan blurted out.（\\\"還有我所愛的一切……\\\"悟飯脫口而出。）
it wasn\\u0027t just fear that the ice made gohan recall. it was arepa and her pale, blue eyes.（冰讓悟飯迴憶起來的不僅僅是恐懼，還有阿瑞帕和她蒼白的藍眼睛。）
a day may have only been going on outside, but he still had no idea if she was well or not.（外麵可能隻過了一天，但他仍然不知道她是否安好。）
she had been dragged into his life, and his fight, because
of that same assault on ka\\u0027s empire.（正是因為對卡布尼特帝國的襲擊，她被卷入了他的生活和戰鬥中。）
the eyes that granted arepa her beauty had cursed her to suffer the consequences of gohan\\u0027s actions.（給阿瑞帕帶來美麗的眼睛卻詛咒她要承受悟飯行動的後果。）